#75: I Never Wanted This

I HATE IT HERE.

I want to scream, really loud.

I hate it so much.

I’m tired of being alone and betrayed and miserable and sad and lonely.

I’m sick of it.

I don’t deserve this.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

“As I wander through union square, I remember when you followed me there. You were the stalker I kind of wanted to have. Being your half-boyfriend was only

half bad.”

I’m tired of life not mattering.

I’m tired of being nothing.

I’m tired of being a waste of love.

I’m tired of being surrounded with hatred.

I’m tired of the pounding, harsh, heaviness, what’s on my shoulders, around my head. I’m tired of the demon that’s haunting me.

I’d like to feel home.

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